Living situations/college.

After high school, I plan to get married to my boyfriend and move in with him. However, after we get married he wants me to stay here for a couple more months so he can save money for an apartment and what not. 

Here at my home house, I am already not wanted. I’ve been kicked out once, for six months. And a couple months ago I was kicked out again, along with my sister and mother. My step dad has made it clear that I am not wanted, and once I graduate, my ass is to the curb. 

Since I have stay here a few months after graduation, I’m trying to figure out where exactly here is, because I know for damn sure it’s not at this house. 

• I could move in with my sister in law, get a job, and help pay her rent. But with the looks of it, an assuring job isn’t promising. 
• I could move in with Youssef, if he decides how everything in his own life is going to work out. 
• Or I could just live in a refrigerator box. I’m sure Appliance Direct wouldn’t mind handing one over.

I still haven’t even started applying for colleges, scholarships, anything. I know I need to, graduation is right around the corner, and I need to get shit done ASAP. But I’m just so unmotivated. I don’t know where I’ll be, so I don’t know where I should apply. I don’t know if I’m going to be moving around, so I don’t know if I can even stay at one school, or to do that shit online. Am I even capable of doing it online? My ADD self. UGH. I DON’T FUCKING KNOW WHAT I’M DOING WITH MY LIFE. FUCK.